I am gross

Hey, y'all!  I am still quitting smoking. I'm about 3 weeks into it, and I am a gross, sweaty mess of a zombie person.

This feels like having flu with a chest cold on top of it.

This is where I should probably say- don't smoke, but I'm not going to do that.  I started smoking b/c it was the least worst option at one of the lowest points in my life.  It helped me to not self-harm and kept me on my feet and moving forward.  It gave me a way to be sociable when I was feeling really unhappy with myself and not sure people would want to know me.

So if you are still smoking? I get it.  

I am afraid of getting cancer, and Josh doesn't smoke.  And I want to spend as much time with Josh as I possibly can.  So I'm quitting.  

Please enjoy some photos.  It may be photo blog updates until I get thru this hump on quitting.